fight of faith (♥)

I'm getting another inferiority complex now.

I don't want to act as elaine.

I don't want to be someone I'm not.

I'm not a good enough actress.

I break under pressure.

I can't cry when I need to.

I don't actually like screaming at all.

I can't be that elaine that all of you want me to be.

I can't pretend that I hate myself and all my friends.

Because I have to continue to believe the lie I told myself.

(because I'm afraid that one day, I might see the truth again)

I'm afraid of filming.

Because of what happens after.

I want to quit.

Don't bother to read it.

Because those who matter don't actually read my blog.

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10:38 PM