fight of faith (♥)

Sunday, September 27, 2009

controversial

gay boys should be less hot, or not gay.

either that, or they should stop letting me know them cos they're making me fall head over heels with them ._.

broke my hiatus to say that,

and that high sugar levels = tired christine in 1 hour.

mug date with deborah was awesome; we should do it more often.

off to work on chinese. i'm still tired.

Labels: church, feelings, friends, notes, random, rants, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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Wednesday, September 23, 2009

HIATUS (NOW TO 23 OCT/URGENT NEEDS TO POST) which ever is earlier ;)

i'm seeing people start their hiatus.

i don't think i'll be able to resist blogging when i feel like it, so here's a notice that the number of posts would be lessened from now till 23 oct ):

yes, i know it's sad that i can't blog about my birthday, but some sacrifices have to be made for grades):

then again, 24 oct = gu jun pyo day with venus koo :D

awesome haha.

right, back to work now.

Labels: birthday, BOF, fangirl, happy, homework, notes, random, rants, school, supernova, wants

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Wednesday, September 16, 2009

sick without mc

isn't that like the worst thing ever?

horrible flu right now: hollow feeling in my head, plugged ears

and millions of tissue used (how many trees have i killed D:)

and i'm still waiting for my mum to get off the phone so i can ask her whether i can go to the doctor's.

which happened to be closed because they weren't open when i came upstairs -.-

oh dear dear me ):

on the other hand, finished studying physics on the mrt :D

and manymany people were staring at my awesome post-it-ed notes lol.

left doing workbook questions again + chemistry.

jiayou christine!

Labels: rants, school, sick, tired

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Sunday, September 13, 2009

change (?)

honestly considering to change blogging platforms now.

there's just this really irritating thing about blogger's long upload time and limited fonts.

ah well, shall concentrate on studies till after exams.

only 1 month to go.

i can do it.

Labels: notes, random, rants, school, supernova, thoughts, wants

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short stops in life

sakae, spring, simplicity.

currently seeking inspiration for birthday cards, one-liners and short writings.

holiday's ending in approximately one hour; i have accomplished nothing but procrastination and rest.

gonna have to stay up late tomorrow to finish up what's undone.

and i'm not looking forward to facing people again.

Labels: birthday, feelings, goals, homework, notes, photos, rants, supernova, thoughts

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beyond the boundaries

malaysia was awesome fun:

1. late nights, later mornings

2. good food :D

3. wii workouts + slumber parties

4. cute waiters (LOL)

5. totally disconnected from singapore

which made me really happy till i came back this morning and saw the hw i have left,

and i have no idea how to do them ):

hm.whatever.

dinner out later. can't wait ♥

Labels: family, happy, homework, rants, school, wants

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Tuesday, September 8, 2009

i'm hurting to see you hurt.

and i have no idea where this shit is coming from.

Labels: emo, epiphany, feelings, friends, notes, rants, supernova

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Saturday, September 5, 2009

untold truths and halfway beliefs

today was semi-awesome.

training was really fun, but i'm really sorry for pissing you guys off ):

today just didn't start right.

and i really don't like people interupting me.

ah i don't know.

it's just that i think the seniors are right and everyone else thinks that they are wrong.

and i don't know how to disagree with them and still see eye to eye with them.

rt without after training rants to haonan just doesn't work out well.

and i think my love for standard ones doubled today haha.

because their popquiz answer was damn cute.

and when you strip away their irritatingness/shyness/quietness,

they're all really just who we were.

and that's pretty comforting, i guess.

(i just wish that you can see it too)

quote that stuck during FA: "YOU ALL MUST BE SCIENTIFIC OKAY?"

haha. meaning no "jaw, shoulder blade, shin" and stuff haha.

post training lunch with daniel & yongsheng:

DOUBLE CHEESEBURGER EVM UPSIZE WITH VARYING PREFERENCES

haha. aweeeeesome :D

then rushed to lido to meet kellie & pearl and watched G-force 3D

pretty good show, and Shaw is my favefavefave theatre now haha.

(+ Time traveller's wife & Alice in Wonderland with Deborah)

(+ many other awesome movies coming out :D)

then sakae dinner + extra large food hahahaha.

you have to see it to know how funny it actually is lol.

and i'm damn bloody tired now):

Labels: /:, clique, emo, epiphany, feelings, friends, goals, happy, homework, notes, pissed, random, rants, school, sj, smc1, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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Friday, September 4, 2009

Because sometimes, what we want contrasts with who we are

If I were in the shoes of someone else, I'll hate myself.

If you get what I mean.

Today wasn't particularly good nor bad.

Just a normal, pretty boring day.

Gah. why do I even bother?

everything's in my head, and I can't type it out right now.

Labels: epiphany, feelings, notes, rants, school, tired

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Tuesday, September 1, 2009

not unhappy birthday

i can't stand how ironic it is that it's joe trohman's birthday.

nor the fact that the moment i started to type this it started to pour.

let's not read too much into this, eh?

and it's just when i decided to forget how fucked up you were.

on the other hand,

happy birthday Zhen Ting & Joe Trohman :)

and i just realised all my best friends like green.

coincidental?

Labels: birthday, epiphany, feelings, notes, rants, supernova, thoughts

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Sunday, August 30, 2009

werewolf ;)

currently feeling really out of breath,

sorta like a panic attack, but i don't know what for.

it's like i'm missing something;

something really important, but i can't remember what.

it's like i've lost some part of me.

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on the other hand, new moon trailer is awesome

team taylor lautner//jacob black ftw :D

Labels: /:, bored, fangirl, happy, notes, random, rants, supernova, thoughts

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oh, i'm sorry, did you say something?

feeling really fucked up now.

like i've been living in isolation for so long,

i've forgotten how to be a friend.

but i really don't want to compromise with this.

i asked you out, you either follow my plans, or disappear.

i've got my whole week's plans planned,

you're not going to ruin it.

Labels: /:, friends, rants, supernova, wants

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just get lost

i just went through my whole archives for this blog.

i take back what i said about loving 3B more than 2C.

i bet if i cried in 3B, nobody would notice, unlike cresmic.

i don't know. i just miss having people to fall back into, and interesting things to talk about.

it's just really really putting off to hear about your ex-classmates talk about how funny their class was;

who was dating who in the class;

how (insertnamehere) did something so stupid everyone laughed;

how they fit in in their class.

and here i am just sitting in this desolate place listening to the teacher ramble.

it really doesn't make much of a gossip topic, y'know?

Labels: /:, bored, clique, feelings, friends, random, rants, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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Saturday, August 29, 2009

but in the end, everyone ends up alone

3B sucks hardcore.

I'ld give anything to get 1C back.

hell, i don't even mind having 2C right now.

i mean, face it,

Cresmic phototaking was always pure fun:

no matter how screwed our photos were,

no matter where we're placed, it doesn't matter.

Cresmic chalet had almost full attendance,

minus the few who had to return to China.

Cresmic halloween party had people dressing up and a proper bbq.

Cresmic lessons were full of nonsense and breaks were filled with TorD/fangirling/shouting across the class.

Cresmic interclass really involved the whole class.

Cresmic felt like home,

but 3B is like... hopeless.

which class has a name like BANANAS?

there's no meaning to it other than this yellow disgusting fruit.

(i'm sorry i do hate bananas oh so very much.)

which class tee took forever to make, costs a hell load, and doesn't even last long?

which class had so little supporters during interclass,

that there wasn't any motivation for us to stay on and play?

which class's class blog is dead and no one bothers to check it?

which class chalet has FOUR people attending and has a 25bucks per person, non inclusive of food & activities fee?

which class makes absolutely no sound during lessons?

which class saps the whole zi-high energy from you cos they're just so fucking quiet and dull?

which class hates school celebrations cos they're a waste of time and rather have formal lessons?

which class doesn't even bother to bond with each other?

which class sucks so much, there's really no point in calling those 36 people a class anymore?

oh right, my class.

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y'know what?

next year let's just choose all the unenthu people to be the class comm,

let them know how hopeless it is to try to bond this class.

they can be the ones planning the class outings (mugger dates, perhaps),

they can go do all the seating arrangements shit

(doesn't matter who you sit with, they're probably clinging on to every shit that the teacher is saying and can't be bothered to listen to you talk),

they can do all the mass smsing/the events planning/announcements making.

it wouldn't matter how screwed the class becomes:

it wouldn't get any worse than this.

oh, and you know what?

i have suggestions on who to choose.

(they'll fit the role perfectly)

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no, this is not a hate post.

this is just me voicing out what i really think about 3B as a whole.

i thank God that there are people inside who are like me,

and it's really nice to know that i'm not just some weird over enthu person ;)

Labels: /:, bored, feelings, friends, God, pissed, random, rants, school, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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Friday, August 28, 2009

sending my ♥ out

i'm really proud of the standard ones today.

i never knew that it was this satisfying seeing them improve beyond our expectations,

and i never knew how much i actually cared for them.

Standard ones, if you ever see this post, keep up your spirit today,

with this kind of spirit, i'm sure that you guys can achieve great heights ♥

on the other hand,

i really miss the standard threes.

i never thought that cheering was important; that just sitting down and whining to each other was important,

but these three weeks apart from each other,

it made me realise that whatever joy we get from our cadets is really different from what we get from each other.

standard threes oh nine, serve with pride|together as one (♥)

smc one, i love you guys.

even though we quarrel and fight and all that stuff,

deep down inside, i think that we make a really nice team,

and that we can tackle all problems we face, yeah ;)

many ♥s for you guys: ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

one for each of us.

Labels: epiphany, feelings, happy, random, rants, sj, smc1, supernova, thoughts, wants

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Saturday, August 15, 2009

dual sound

GAH.

my sister refuses to let me watch BOF in korean ._.

it sounds so much better in korean lah ._.

but i alr finished the whole series LOL.

but still ._.

okay. i'm whining now.

Labels: BOF, family, fangirl, random, rants

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sore throat + weird thoughts

currently feeling happy + sad + confused at the same time.

i don't know what you're expecting of me,

i don't know what i'm supposed to do.

i don't know whether you're faking it,

i don't know where i need to go.

Labels: /:, feelings, rants, school, sick, thoughts, tired

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Tuesday, August 11, 2009

a moment in time

alrighty. so i got home from the hospital not long ago.

went to spend the day with my lil bro while my mum went home to rest.

i am such a nice person LOL.

studied chinese there. there's a slight chance i might pass :D haha.

pulled my sole muscles this morning.

now it's twitching and having really sudden spasms of pain.

and it's painful ):

but today's a happy day cos i bought the national geographic magazine at $1.

great bargain LOL. haha. i love NGM's pictures.

left chem file + ACE to study.

which i am not caring about -.-

will sleep before 11 today: it's my reward for being nice.

+ i think i'm falling sick ):

Labels: bored, family, happy, homework, rants, school, sick, thoughts, tired, wants

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Sunday, August 9, 2009

slightly salted tears

i'm feeling so much better now after that good long cry.

i wasn't even crying for me, hell, i was crying for the broken hearted.

for those who were here and then left,

for those who left and came back,

for those who never said goodbye.

i haven't felt such a clear head for so long:

life's been a real bad tease these days - i always had to be the person everyone expects me to be, and i'm afraid to fall of their expectations, though i'm tempted to just blow my cover.

there's been too much deception, too many lies;

so much indecisiveness, so many wrong choices.

but now, it seems clear that it doesn't matter what everyone else says or does.

i am me. no one can change that, not the people who backstabbed, not the people who left, not even the dear voice in my head that keeps shouting the worse thoughts out.

it seems as though i killed that voice.

and i have no idea whether that's a good thing.

i kinda miss those serious heart-to-heart talks i have with xl:

the ones where i'm crying here, and i know he's there to make me smile.

the ones where i could embarass myself real bad and know he won't bring it up ever again.

the ones where i never had to pretend to be okay.

but we all have to grow up and move on, don't we?

we all have to pick up the pieces and try to fix them back together.

we all have to leave a part of us to grow a new one.

it hurts, but it's for the better, i guess.

so here's saying goodbye to the fuckers that left because they were afraid of the consequences of their mindless actions.

here's saying goodbye to those that never said goodbye.

here's picking myself up from the ground, and not looking anywhere but away from you.

i'm not sorry even if you are.

you deserve everything, it might not be coming, but i believe someday, everything would come to light.

just you wait, my dear,

because revenge was never meant to be taken directly: it comes in separate doses.

Labels: BOF, clique, emo, epiphany, fangirl, feelings, friends, goals, happy, jihoo, notes, pissed, poem, prayers, rants, sick, sj, supernova, thoughts, wants

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Saturday, August 8, 2009

suckers

i don't blame you for being you, but you can't blame me for hating it.

going out to all those that are pissing me off right now.

kudos to those who know who you are.

i hope it makes you sad.

Labels: bored, friends, notes, pissed, random, rants, sj, supernova

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