masquerader

Christine Teo
1810.1994
Living in Singapore &
Here's my formal invitation;
You and me go masquerading
Lose ourselves in this charade and
Is this love we're imitating?

rsvp


may i?


(for the time being)
- wait for it ;) -

renaissance
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October 2009

resources
x o x o x
- Since 040409

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

geog, physics, chem, chinese.
nearly done.


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11:01 PM

done with maths!
now on to LA & Geog & physics & chem ._.

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8:34 PM

mathnaphomeworksleep

I'm sleepy and i have loads of homework to complete.
ah well.
after i finish math, i'll take a 15 mins nap before continuing other hw.
i think i'm not gonna sleep tonight.

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5:33 PM

Monday, June 29, 2009
I'll be by your side



it's today D:
went quite well, i think.
met wuyue at aljunied mrt in the morning,
took cab to school with jiamin & kellie (cos we're smart people and missed the waiting for 158 cos there wasn't any 158A.)

so yeah.
i slept in every lesson,
made ms low pretty pissed,
but had fun with 3B clique during recess and 2C clique during lunch.
yoghurt ice cream tradition was broken ):

ah well. gonna sleep now.
and i think God was with me through today.
I don't know how to put it into words.

xoxochristine

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10:40 PM

Sunday, June 28, 2009

50 followers on twitter :D

heh. me's a happy kiddo till i see my hw ._.
oh wells. what's gotta be done gotta be done ):

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6:29 PM

i want to die.
geog essay, LA essay, jian bao, liu yong, macbeth.
Left untouched.

and i'm so tired now i could fall asleep.

i don't want tmr to come .__.

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6:23 PM

Friday, June 26, 2009

alrighty people,
FOLLOW ME ON TWITTER!
(meaning go get an account like now)

lol.
bought 21st century breakdown & Guilty Pleasure.
Majorly hooked on Ashley tisdale now.

tired. imma sleep.


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11:36 PM

3B Chalet :D

DAY ONE

Went to Pasir Ris to take the shuttle bus after shopping with Deborah (aka. my long lost twin) at Vivo, then met Kellie at Costa Sands Pasir Ris because of a big misunderstanding. haha.
Reached Costa Sands Downtown East at about 3.20 (?) and then died of laughter at the arguments the chauvinist (Dawei) and feminist (Kellie) had. And then I died when I found out the next person that's coming was Adalric at 7 -.-
Kellie left at 5+? so left me & dawei in the chalet until about 6? when we went arcade to play. (okay. technically he played and I watched cos I couldn't find an ATM and I had no cash -.-)

then at 7 Adalric came.
went to slack at the chalet until Veron came at around 9?
went to eat dinner at BBQ chicken or sth.
then went back to chalet to slack & play cards & TorD & Shoot Shag Marry (which was surprisingly fun but we got bored after playing it for 2 hours? cos there wasn't enough humans to shoot, shag & marry. LOL)
slept at 5am? can't rmb.
Trying to sleep was hilarious.
'cept that we were freaked enough to squeeze all four of us on 2 single beds even though there were 8 LOL.

DAY TWO

woke up at 8, I think.
Ate Mcs breakfast with Veron & Adalric. They have weird eating habits. haha.
Went to shop at NTUC while waiting for the arcade to open, met Dawei there, then wandered around Ehub. Bought tickets for the 2.30am screening of Drag Me to Hell.

----- I'll edit later. need to do essays now /: -----


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8:33 PM

OHMYGOD.
MICHAEL JACKSON'S DEAD D:

it's so sudden ._.
I come back from 3B chalet and find out that this guy who rocked the industry is dead ):

R.I.P. Michael ):
King of Pop and all that stuff.
My whole twitter home page is filled with messages in rememberance of you.

i'll blog about chalet later.
I'm sad ):

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12:21 PM

Wednesday, June 24, 2009
2C3B2C3B

omg. i suddenly miss cresmic a lot ):
3B chalet today till 26.
remember to keep my hits up kays?
love ya loads.
♥christine(:
I am so zilian omg haha.

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9:12 AM

Tuesday, June 23, 2009
how to change colours.

HI THIS IS RED.
DO YOU SEE RED?
i CAN MAKE GREEN TOO!
WHAT ABOUT BLUE?
OOO IT RHYMES 8D
ORANGE!
HM. WHAT RHYMES WITH ORANGE?
OH RIGHT. NOTHING!

retarded post for my retarded sister 8D

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10:31 PM

Have we broken through?


Berlin Wall
Originally uploaded by pbert

Life seems like that now.
Grey-scale, empty, serene;
just the cameraman and the scene.

Some say it's peaceful,
but I question, should we break through that wall of silence?
what would come through if it's broken?
what may be lost if we don't break it?

So here comes the startling conclusion:
have we broken through the layers of masks we've worn since young?
have we opposed who we really are inside;
do we know who we really are?

Have we truly, broken through?


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4:32 PM

Flickr

This is a test post from flickr, a fancy photo sharing thing.


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4:25 PM

tagged.

my blog hit's dead D:
ZERO HITS THIS WEEK.
wtf .__.
come back people ):

Tagged by Pearl:

Complete the sentence
20 questions only!

I am a dreamer, believer and I'm better than you (because I said so, and Christine is always right ;D)

My best guy friend is the best guy I can ever meet, but he'll never be my boyfriend. (and he can listen to me rant about anything and everything + cheer me up no matter what <3)

Guys these days should be more like Edward Cullen & Peter Pan

My best girl friend is so alike me and yet we have enough differences to make life interesting (:

Good guys only exist in my head.

I like guys who are not male chauvinists. (and thus accept that women are sometimes better than men.)

I like friends who are able to keep quiet once in a while. (i'm sorry that I don't really like filling quietness with words.)

I tell my secrets to the Alice in my head & the Wendy in my heart.

I wish Edward Cullen really existed, or that magic is real.

I regret not attending Sunday School.

I cannot live without colour. (the world would be such a dull place and I'll probably get locked up in an asylum for trying to make it more interesting.)

I want to kill nothing as yet. I'll get back to ya.

I would wait forever for life to end. and I ain't lying cos we've been dying since we're born.

I love myself. (& that's the first step to love others.)

I hate people interupting me when I'm reading.

At this time 10 years ago, I was 4 & enjoying my holidays watching teletubbies/barney/blues clues. LOL

At this time two years ago, I was chionging my xiaowangzi reflection and sad that school reopens tmr ):

At this time 1 month ago, I posted 6 times and Wu Yue was gonna leave for China ):

At this time 10 years from now, I'll be graduating from university.

I tag Deborah and whoever reads this to do this

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10:09 AM

Saturday, June 20, 2009

i'm in vietnam 8D
super hot here, but there's nice food and stuff.
LOL.
post about my weird dream later.
breakfast first.


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10:21 AM

Thursday, June 18, 2009
HOT. BORED. ooo it rhymes. LOL

lalala.I'm home for like 1 hr and i'm leaving again.
don't expect to see me online for the next few days?
lol.
i feel like i'm leaving this world.

i'm bored.
bye love.

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6:39 PM

Tuesday, June 16, 2009
C-tothe-R-tothe-E-SMIC

I'm excited for later!
haha.
and my nails are RED :D
like finally. LOL.

okay. I need to pack now.
bye <3

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10:04 AM

Monday, June 15, 2009
(holi)DAYS.



My june hols rocks.
I have 5 days free, including today.
to finish my homework and rest.
oh. I forgot I have to clean my room before 23.
Happy day.
my mum's gonna strip me of my internet rights and books when she comes back.
fuck idmi.

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5:53 PM

christine is epic fail.
reached home at 3+ with a pretty bad mood.
realised my fridge stopped working cos the of power failure.
pretty pissed with idmi.

good mood from lunch died and i have no mood to post.
maybe later.

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5:23 PM

Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Peter (Lewis Kingston Wentz III) Pan




HAPPY 30TH PETER PAN 8D
the boy who never grows up has become a man, i guess.

you're a great daddy, so don't let ashlee/bronx/whoever else down by doing the stupid stuff that some celebs do.
and stay cool, yeah?
and uh, come down to singapore more often + upload my M&G pics soon O:

haha. love ya loads.

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10:56 PM

LEE KELLIE <33


HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLIE!
my bestest best friend and a million other stuff :D

I'll type the stuff dedicated to you here after I actually type them to you cos I haven't thought of anything past that 905 characters. I SPENT 10+ SMSES ON YOUR MIDNIGHT WISHES WORHZ.
haha.
yeah, I know I'm your bestest best friend too LOL. (zikua alr X:)

see you tmr <3

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10:35 PM

check yes juliet, are you with me?

run baby run, don't ever look back.
they'll tear us apart, if you give them the chance.

yeah. that's me running away from my fears;
me trying desperately to cling on to what I have left;
so that in the end, I still have a shard of who I was.

I learnt quite a lot from IDMI today.
not the parts where I had to act, but rather those that I didn't have to care about.
because then, I didn't have to think through what I was supposed to do.
ah. I don't know what I'm rambling about now.

I think I'll miss IDMI when it's over ):

-----

I haven't eaten dinner yet.
I miss my mama's cooking ):
ate mcs twice today.
I think I can't stand another round of it.

lol.
I'm rushing out some stuff now.
blog later (:

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8:45 PM

grrrrrrrr.

i'm hungry ):
eating breakfast at serangoon, though.
so i won't be late again. lol.
it's freaking hot here.

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8:08 AM

Tuesday, June 9, 2009
just one more

i'm addicted to manufactured apple juice.
I think I'll get diabetes from drinking too much.
okay.
just ONE more cup before I go to sleep.

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oh. and I suddenly remember sth.
Saw XL at mcs this morning while I was eating lunch.
he was damn cute omg. haha.
ya lah. all my fault for not calling you.
cos if not you'll get like half a meal free -.-
next time I don't sms you alr. LOL.

was pretty fun actually having a proper convo with him through texting.
haven't talked to him proper since idk when.
haha. i miss you dude ):
talk to me more yeah?

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11:00 PM

&that butterfly moment (crushed like a paperball)

I really counted on spending Fathers' Day with my dad.
It's just been so long since I saw him.
It was like a second chance when I heard that I could go to vietnam with my aunt.
A second chance to finish that card I couldn't complete before my family flew;
a second chance to finally do what I never dared to.

And now, that could all go in that blink of a moment.
Because we are, afterall, poor people.
And I can't take the plane alone, as much as I'd like to.

I really don't want to spend Fathers' Day alone.

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10:39 PM

S is for shop/study/sleep/schedule (sorry)

I'm so tired I should go to sleep right now.
But I'm waiting for my family.
Study date + Shopping with Kellie for BTS on thurs.
Sorry Deborah. Next Wednesday?

Yeah. My schedule's that packed ):

ah well. watching tv while waiting now.
tata world.

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9:05 PM

&I'm tired (of being all alone)

I'm kinda not being myself today.
idk why.
maaaaaaaan. I don't want to go serangoon.
):

bright side: I'll get proper dinner tonight.

I shall look at the bright side.

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9:55 AM

Monday, June 8, 2009
11.11 again

11.11pm.
I'm currently missing the times when I don't have to work.

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11:11 PM

Sometimes I think the quitters are the winners.

I'm getting another inferiority complex now.
I don't want to act as elaine.
I don't want to be someone I'm not.
I'm not a good enough actress.
I break under pressure.
I can't cry when I need to.
I don't actually like screaming at all.
I can't be that elaine that all of you want me to be.
I can't pretend that I hate myself and all my friends.

Because I have to continue to believe the lie I told myself.
(because I'm afraid that one day, I might see the truth again)

I'm afraid of filming.
Because of what happens after.
I want to quit.

Don't bother to read it.
Because those who matter don't actually read my blog.

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10:38 PM

okay back from my shower.
so before I went to meet Kellie I ate lunch at pastamania.
NEVER EAT BEEF LAGSANA FROM PASTAMANIA.
it looked like a sea of tomato sauce, and the cheese + beef part looked like dog food.
probably tasted like it too.
I don't know. Never tried dog food before.

then I went to buy my sis's keyboard.
Nearly died bringing it home.
Quote Derek the shop manager: "No, it's not heavy, just very bulky."
I guess he has muscles and I don't.
lol.

and after meeting Kellie I had proper dinner at my grandparents'.
WAY better than pastamania, and it was free.
ah well. I've learnt my lesson, then.
Read nineteen minutes for the whole way back.
Got a wee bit car sick.
Weird cos I've never had motion sickness before.
hm.

then went to symphony to collect the keyboard stand,
and went back home looking like I was gonna attack someone with the stand.
lol.

-----

I'm feeling like it's all my fault that it turned out like that.
So I'm gonna make sure you recover asap.
I'm sorry for leaving you alone for so long,
and I still love you despite the many things I've thought.
Get well soon?

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10:03 PM

Studying could get any more fun

mugging session with Kellie was totally worth it.
Finished 1 1/2 pages of math in 3hrs?
I could not have done it alone, I tell you.

And she finally did the lemon tea dare at starbucks.
LOL.
It was normal lah -.- the person sitting next to us ordered the same thing.
haha. and kellie was like "WHO GOES TO STARBUCKS TO ORDER TEA?!"
I told you it's damn normal ._.

I'M DETERMINED TO SOLVE THAT MATH QUESTION, KAYS?
haha. I SHALL DO IT WITH NO HELP O:
and kellie shall wonder at my awesomeness.
lol. it's okay if you don't get it. (it's for intellectuals)
rofl. (now that's an inside joke)

I want another mugging session D:
+ Dress shopping with Deborah
++ Going to MWL to buy stuff for father's day card.
+++ Shopping for back-to-school stuff with Kellie.

My holiday schedule is full of girl time with Kellie.
LOL.
and I shall paint my nails red after IDMI filming.
It plain sucks that I have to remove my pink polish now ):

oh well.
shower now, post later.

xoxo Christine(:
( i feel really happy now)

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9:41 PM

Sunday, June 7, 2009
Searching for the equilibrium

it feels as if I'm trying to make everything back to normal,
but I kinda forgot that normal wasn't just me.

-----

idled today away.
Sims 3 + fruitless attempt to go out to buy the keyboard for my sister.
and I kinda failed at making agar agar.
It wasn't sweet enough.

Ah well.
New discoveries everyday.
Yesterday I found out that you can't wash socks with a washing machine.
Today I found out that oil was necessary to make pancakes not stick on the pan.
(even on non-stick pans)
and stuff like agar agar took about 5mins to make, but very long to cool.

And that my POSB had a withdrawal limit of 200 bucks.
.__.

possible study session with Kellie to finish Hols hw,
and dress shopping with Deborah?
+ superteens workshop with Kellie 8D
I want scrapbooking classes again.
the previous time was so fun, haha.

okay. I have to go check on my washing now ._.
I don't like being alone at home, in case you still haven't realised.

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7:04 PM

Homerun for the storm.

lightning strikes and thunder scores.

my whole house's electricity just went out cos of the lightning.
restoring it is easy, but now my dvd recorder's memory's wiped out.
lalala.
seeking help from my mama using msn now.

oh and did i mention my nails are orange?
haha yeah.
i wanted to paint red after i painted orange,
but oh well.
THERE'S ALWAYS NEXT WEEK ;)

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12:08 PM

Saturday, June 6, 2009

packing to go downstairs now.
I'm bringing my laptop along cos there's sims 3.
LOL.

okay.
hopefully I can bring it along.
cos I don't know whether we're playing it or not X:

So I'll settle for twilight 8D

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6:08 PM

A series of (Un)fortunate Events

what's left of me, then?

I just found out bike hike's cancelled.
for me, at the very least.
A very turn of unfortunate, or fortunate, events.
Was supposed to wake up from my nap at 5pm and leave at 5.30,
but i didn't hear my alarm ring, so i woke up at 5.40,
to find out that xinyi smsed me at 5 & called me 4mins ago to tell me bike hike's cancelled.
(because we couldn't cycle)

So here I am sitting in my room,
unsure of what to do.
I could go to the sleepover downstairs,
but I was so looking forward to bike hike that I wasn't looking forward to that,
and now I'm not really enthusiastic about going down ._.

but it would mean company in this pretty lonely world here.

oh. and I realise I'm missing band concert.
Again.
For nothing.

giving myself 10mins to decide what to do later on.

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5:52 PM

Friday, June 5, 2009
PETER LEWIS KINGSTON WENTZ III

i'm so tired now i think i can just fall asleep typing this.
lol. anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PETE WENTZ 8D

my greatest love since 2007 (even though he's married and all that stuff)
haha.
Benny better appreciate that i spent this special day with them instead of editing pictures of pete.
that being said, I'll post my proper happy birthday tmr. lol.

ALDD2 was more fun than ALDD1.
and more tiring.
Benny zi-high!
haha.

AP-ed in the morning cos i was really reluctant to go to school.
i don't know why either.
._.

bike hike tmr.
sleeping now.

(i'm sorry if this post does not make any sense, i'm too tired to think well)

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10:32 PM

Thursday, June 4, 2009
ALDD1

ALDD1
(annual leisure day day 1)

so yeah. that was today.
died of tiredness.
had loads of fun, though.
i love benny (:

haha.
the std1s were pretty cute.
and i realise benny std1s are all those super chirpy/cannot stop talking ones, or those super quiet ones. LOL.

Sir Kai Dick: I hope you will spend your time, no, I hope you will invest your time __(sthsth)__
died of laughter X:
i like sj activities that are not RT.
lol.

had dinner with xinyi :D
i miss going home with her like we did in year 1.
but that's how life is, eh?
we get, we lose, we cry.

-----

nineteen minutes is a rather sad book, i guess.
but i'm getting a bit bored by jodi picoult's style of writing.
i can guess the story line alr ):
the book has like everything to do with what we're studying in LA -
gun violence, bullying, prior causes, etc.

oh. and i did my laundry for the first time in my life O:
haha. yeah.
and nearly died trying to hang the clothes T.T

ALDD2 tmr.
i'm kinda looking forward to it, but kinda wish i can pon it as well.
sian.
1 hr of sims 3 before i go to sleep.

&i'm sorry if there aren't any proper updates here for the next few days.
pretty packed schedule these few days ):
and i'm so tired that i hardly have time to muse about things.
weird eh?

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9:13 PM

Wednesday, June 3, 2009
11.11pm. imy.

i spent tonight's 11.11pm with my family.
through msn.

i miss them.
and sims 3 is really fun. haha.

ald tmr.
i can't say i'm looking forward to it.

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11:12 PM

She packed her bags and left

so long, put your blue jeans back on, girl, go home.
cos hollywood's not america.

rah.
i feel so lonely i'm going to talk to myself soon.
goodness gracious.

philosophize later.
shower now.

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8:05 PM

where'd you go?

just got home from idmi.
i feel really really tired.
but i need to play sims D:

and the house's really quiet.
i'm not used to it.
i'm blasting music now.
it's like some creepy-scary environment.

i miss my family ):

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7:55 PM

just another me.

i feel like an epic failure now.

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12:09 AM

Tuesday, June 2, 2009
hit list

#1 the psp's gonna be gone to vietnam for 20 days.
#2 i'm staying in singapore.
#3 i have to go to school tmr.
#4 my family's going to vietnam while i'm in sch.
#5 i have to bring a luggage full of clothes to sch for idmi.
#6 i don't have a luggage to bring them in cos all the luggages are going to vietnam.
#7 i have no idea how to bring my clothes.
#8 i'm still awake and there's a long day ahead tmr.
#9 i can't fall asleep.
#10 i kinda hope today won't end.

top 10 thoughts in my mind right now.
in random order.

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11:58 PM

my fault. again.

so now it's all my fault.
great. thanks.
i'm sorry for wasting all my time trying to help you.
i'm sorry for not preparing for my idmi tmr and instead trying to find out how to let you guys bring sims 3 over to vietnam without the disc.
i'm sorry you're such a fucktard and refuse to bring the laptop over.
i'm sorry for posting this, but i seriously had enough of being under-rated today.
i'm sorry the last day i get to spend with you is ruined at the last hour.

i'm sorry for feeling glad that the next time i see you is 20 days later.

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11:28 PM

SIMS 3!

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
i got my sims 3 8D
update later.
I install first. haha (:

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7:31 PM

Monday, June 1, 2009
Alice in Wonderland: the one I made in my head

sometimes we just need to take a step back to see the world in full glory.
and sometimes, that step that you take sends you falling off a cliff,
to a bottomless, black hole.

no, not blackhole, where you get sucked in, along with everything else;
black hole, where there's only darkness, and you're the only one in it.
exclusion from the world,
you're the one and only person, that's all you ever wanted.
you should be happy, elated, jumping with joy!

except that you're lost in the darkness,
dumbfounded by that sudden blindness you find yourself in.
you don't know where you are.
heaven? hell? in between?

no, my dear.
you're just hopelessly lost in your mind,
the one that you refuse to show anyone,
the one that hides your pain.
the pain that eats your heart.

your mind is far more intricate than even the toughest labryinth,
far harder to find the way out.
because you've set traps everywhere to keep people out.
so you can't find the way out.
the exit to who you are.

sometimes, that step is all it takes to take away the pain.
(because after that, you can't find yourself anymore)

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10:29 PM

Jacob Black xo Taylor Lautner

taylor lautner's my new crush O:
(okay, old flame with new feelings)

he's so much more muscular and stuff now.
ahahaha.
XINLEI! YOU STILL OWE ME MY PRESENT WHICH WAS SUPPOSED TO BE STH OF TAYLOR'S
okay. now i sound like a creep X:

heh.
but he's hot 8D

sims 3 tmr.
can't wait.
shall sleep now. haha.

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10:21 PM

CHU LE SHAN




CHULESHAN I miss you D:
now I have nobody to teach me all the subjects,
and I desperately need help for my hols hw.

meh.
this is just an utterly random post.

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9:55 PM

Send me to New York I'd love to see LA

2 more days left with my family.
and then they're all gone on holiday at vietnam ):

i think i'll be freaked out by the dark when they're not here.
the house will just be this quiet picture,
empty, hollow, silent.
all but me.

hm.
have to wake up early to go to iluma tmr 8D
sims 3 yay yay yay. haha.
and i'm craving for more B&Js X:

"i'm not actually missing you, i'm just thinking of us."
i forgot where i picked up that quote.
it kinda just stuck.

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5:55 PM