fight of faith (♥)

Monday, August 31, 2009

restless minds & tired souls

christine's feeling slightly sad.

i don't know why i mind so much,

but it seems like the people i love have been letting me down a lot these days.

i'm sorry i lie, i'm sorry i'm a liar, i'm sorry i lied.

i'm afraid of being alone.

i miss 6A'06/P6 clique/proper conversations with xl

yes, i'm a sucker for nostalgia.

Labels: /:, clique, emo, epiphany, feelings, FREAKED OUT BY BC, friends, notes, random, school, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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10:37 PM

a little high on sugar

today was okay until the concert,

and not okay until swensens buffet @ ION Orchard.

not bitching about why ;)

haha. i love wuyue.

she makes me happy and high and lets me bitch about everyone :D

met mira at Swensens.

like after soooooooo long.

i miss her haha.

happy (really) belated 16th, dear.

in a very good mood now cos of the ice cream.

ice cream + shopping makes me high! hahahaha.

i'm not letting the past get into me;

i shot alice in the head.

beat that, bitch :)

Labels: clique, emo, epiphany, friends, happy, supernova, tired, wants

written on
9:15 PM

never so happy; never so sad

Pixel Post:

Teachers Day 09 @ DHS + Swensens @ ION Orchard

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more @http://www.facebook.com/photos.php?id=607767709

friends only ;)

wordy post after my shower, i stink now haha oops.

Labels: /:, clique, emo, friends, happy, notes, photos, random, school, supernova, tired

written on
7:36 PM

trigo graphs & penthouse lids

i have given up chionging math assg and decided to go to sch and copy X:

i have no idea how to do the questions as a result of not listening in class.

i am such a failure in math. lol.

shall go sleep now.

not looking forward to tmr's celebrations; waiting for ice-cream buffet with wuyue :D

Labels: /:, homework, school, tired

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12:25 AM

Sunday, August 30, 2009

william shakespeare should reincarnate and rewrite his whole series

macbeth is pretty interesting, i guess.

if only it were in modern english and more understandable.

i had change my reading places a few million times to get comfy with the book.

maybe it's just me, but different books need different positions to get the full reading benefits.

ah well, whatever.

back to macbeth :]

Labels: school, supernova, wants

written on
7:45 PM

knock knock, who's there?

okay. major freak incident just now.

was really deep into reading macbeth

when i heard a knocking noise and the doorbell.

and then i went to the door and there was nobody there.

damn scary.

and i didn't dare to open the door cos there's nobody but me at home.

scaryscaryscaryscary.

and i still can't contact my mum /:

Labels: feelings, notes, random, supernova, thoughts, tired

written on
5:28 PM

werewolf ;)

currently feeling really out of breath,

sorta like a panic attack, but i don't know what for.

it's like i'm missing something;

something really important, but i can't remember what.

it's like i've lost some part of me.

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on the other hand, new moon trailer is awesome

team taylor lautner//jacob black ftw :D

Labels: /:, bored, fangirl, happy, notes, random, rants, supernova, thoughts

written on
3:38 PM

oh, i'm sorry, did you say something?

feeling really fucked up now.

like i've been living in isolation for so long,

i've forgotten how to be a friend.

but i really don't want to compromise with this.

i asked you out, you either follow my plans, or disappear.

i've got my whole week's plans planned,

you're not going to ruin it.

Labels: /:, friends, rants, supernova, wants

written on
3:26 PM

in thunder, lightning or in rain.

currently taking a break from studying macbeth.

it's not going very well, though:

read 35 pages and fell asleep for half an hour /:

christine shall persevere and read on :D

and true to the title, it's pouring over here in woodlands.

Labels: /:, school, tired

written on
1:05 PM

just get lost

i just went through my whole archives for this blog.

i take back what i said about loving 3B more than 2C.

i bet if i cried in 3B, nobody would notice, unlike cresmic.

i don't know. i just miss having people to fall back into, and interesting things to talk about.

it's just really really putting off to hear about your ex-classmates talk about how funny their class was;

who was dating who in the class;

how (insertnamehere) did something so stupid everyone laughed;

how they fit in in their class.

and here i am just sitting in this desolate place listening to the teacher ramble.

it really doesn't make much of a gossip topic, y'know?

Labels: /:, bored, clique, feelings, friends, random, rants, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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12:06 AM

Saturday, August 29, 2009

but in the end, everyone ends up alone

3B sucks hardcore.

I'ld give anything to get 1C back.

hell, i don't even mind having 2C right now.

i mean, face it,

Cresmic phototaking was always pure fun:

no matter how screwed our photos were,

no matter where we're placed, it doesn't matter.

Cresmic chalet had almost full attendance,

minus the few who had to return to China.

Cresmic halloween party had people dressing up and a proper bbq.

Cresmic lessons were full of nonsense and breaks were filled with TorD/fangirling/shouting across the class.

Cresmic interclass really involved the whole class.

Cresmic felt like home,

but 3B is like... hopeless.

which class has a name like BANANAS?

there's no meaning to it other than this yellow disgusting fruit.

(i'm sorry i do hate bananas oh so very much.)

which class tee took forever to make, costs a hell load, and doesn't even last long?

which class had so little supporters during interclass,

that there wasn't any motivation for us to stay on and play?

which class's class blog is dead and no one bothers to check it?

which class chalet has FOUR people attending and has a 25bucks per person, non inclusive of food & activities fee?

which class makes absolutely no sound during lessons?

which class saps the whole zi-high energy from you cos they're just so fucking quiet and dull?

which class hates school celebrations cos they're a waste of time and rather have formal lessons?

which class doesn't even bother to bond with each other?

which class sucks so much, there's really no point in calling those 36 people a class anymore?

oh right, my class.

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y'know what?

next year let's just choose all the unenthu people to be the class comm,

let them know how hopeless it is to try to bond this class.

they can be the ones planning the class outings (mugger dates, perhaps),

they can go do all the seating arrangements shit

(doesn't matter who you sit with, they're probably clinging on to every shit that the teacher is saying and can't be bothered to listen to you talk),

they can do all the mass smsing/the events planning/announcements making.

it wouldn't matter how screwed the class becomes:

it wouldn't get any worse than this.

oh, and you know what?

i have suggestions on who to choose.

(they'll fit the role perfectly)

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no, this is not a hate post.

this is just me voicing out what i really think about 3B as a whole.

i thank God that there are people inside who are like me,

and it's really nice to know that i'm not just some weird over enthu person ;)

Labels: /:, bored, feelings, friends, God, pissed, random, rants, school, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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11:33 PM

Friday, August 28, 2009

i love irony.

http://clandestineindustries.com/xr/body.php?module=product_details&pid=1528&id=69

me wants haha.

awesome design, i tell you .__.

pete wentz is my role model, minus the shotgun marriage.

LOL.

alrighty, off to sleep now.

really really tired. /:

Labels: feelings, fob, goals, supernova, tired, wants

written on
11:14 PM

sending my ♥ out

i'm really proud of the standard ones today.

i never knew that it was this satisfying seeing them improve beyond our expectations,

and i never knew how much i actually cared for them.

Standard ones, if you ever see this post, keep up your spirit today,

with this kind of spirit, i'm sure that you guys can achieve great heights ♥

on the other hand,

i really miss the standard threes.

i never thought that cheering was important; that just sitting down and whining to each other was important,

but these three weeks apart from each other,

it made me realise that whatever joy we get from our cadets is really different from what we get from each other.

standard threes oh nine, serve with pride|together as one (♥)

smc one, i love you guys.

even though we quarrel and fight and all that stuff,

deep down inside, i think that we make a really nice team,

and that we can tackle all problems we face, yeah ;)

many ♥s for you guys: ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

one for each of us.

Labels: epiphany, feelings, happy, random, rants, sj, smc1, supernova, thoughts, wants

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10:17 PM

Thursday, August 27, 2009

.__.

finished cheer sheets for stds ones.

i have to get used to late nights again, i guess.

smc1 (L)

Labels: /:, sj, smc1, tired

written on
11:20 PM

mercy relief

alrighty, so geog test is over :D

mighty sigh of relief here haha.

and my new hobby is blogshop hopping lol.

have a few on my wanted list alr(:

now left saving money hahahaha.

ah well. waiting for sept hols now.

mugging + shopping in malaysia <3

been damn long since i saw my cousins there, and i miss the bigbig shopping centre.

LOL. yes, i'm that much of a shopaholic haha.

only 8days to go :D

Labels: goals, happy, supernova, wants

written on
10:13 PM

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

promised pixels. xoxo

saved this as draft last night and forgot to post it.

i'm tired of seeing all my friends walk ahead of me and never turning back.

life's just one long rat race, ain't it?

it's just running to have the highest popularity, having the bests friends.

studying at the best college, getting the best job.

it's really putting me off that the people i trust are the people i should beware most,

and that best friends are those you don't know well.

ah, it's just one big confusing concept that i don't want to understand.

Labels: /:, emo, epiphany, feelings, friends, supernova, thoughts

written on
9:59 PM

i've got a first class ticket to a night all alone

80% done with geog, i guess.

but it'll be a miracle if i pass the test.

honestly, i don't even know what i'm studying for.

talk about being prepared, eh?

dinner now, pixels later.

Labels: bored, homework

written on
6:51 PM

it starts in my toes and I crinkle my nose

-bubbly, colbie caillat

feeling not bubbly at all now:

woke up at 0530 with a splitting headache and nearly died trying to go back to sleep.

woke up again at 0900 with a dull ache in my head, ate breakfast and studied geog.

1500 still awake, and covered industries, global industrial shift and tourism.

only population, urban studies and migration left.

gah. my nose is still feeling really bad, and i can't remember anything that i studied.

great achievement, christine.

oh, and my house has a new tv and i don't like it.

it's too big (and i thought people liked big tvs) /:

ah well. back to migration.

[edit] add an aching toe to the sickness equation. stubbed my toe on the table. pain ): [/edit]

Labels: /:, bored, homework, notes, school, sick, tired, wants

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3:32 PM

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

geography

my awesome geog notes.

which are only half done, and i think i'm gonna flunk the test.

currently printing out notes for the other topics so i can study them my way.

i'm killing trees here /:

head is so full and eyes so dense that i think i can just fall asleep sitting.

goodnight world (full of muggers and failures)

Labels: /:, feelings, homework, notes, school, supernova, tired

written on
11:34 PM

Monday, August 24, 2009

age to age He stands; and time is in His hands

takes from outside Vera's house, Changi Airport, and class.

i have the urge to just walk the whole of singapore and snap pics haha.

i want bridges and gates, trees and skies. (and seas + sunsets :D)

and i'm determined to take dawn shots during the sept hols, anyone game for it?

haha. alright, back to jian bao now (:

Labels: feelings, happy, homework, notes, random, supernova, wants

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7:58 PM

Saturday, August 22, 2009

macrocasm

why is macro photography so concentrated on insects/flowers/other living things?

it's like so normal to see millions of search results of living things now.

i want macro-ed still life /:

it's nicer haha.

currently tying up the loose ends of chemistry, and attempting to memorize LA script.

i will not get distracted.

Labels: homework, sick, wants

written on
11:03 PM

Ablazed skies

awesome picture taken by my phone eons ago.

there's nothing much to post about today cept dinner was great,

and i probably won't get to eat the same dinner till next year.

i love my daddy :D

Labels: bored, family, happy, notes, supernova, wants

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9:32 PM

Friday, August 21, 2009

O.O

i am ready to collapse now.

but damn my hair's wet.

flu + streneous activity = bad way to end day.

i need to sleep.

Labels: school, sick, sj, tired

written on
11:11 PM

Thursday, August 20, 2009

i see you see i see red.

today was awesome, but i'm too tired to talk about it.

main point: family time + awesome shopping+ new camera = great happiness.

haha.

yes, i finally got my red cam. and it's awesome :D

xoxo christine.

Labels: family, happy, notes, sick, supernova, wants

written on
11:41 PM

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

i'm burning up

gah. fever.

i'm ready to collapse now ._.

Labels: sick, tired

written on
10:24 PM

second hand boys.

there's just this thing about boys in second place that makes me like them.

gaah. i can't think of all the examples now. but there's sth about boys like jihoo that i love ._.

ah well. back to LA roleplay script.

Labels: fangirl, feelings, homework, jihoo, random

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8:12 PM

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

The Storyteller: truths, lies & in betweens

it's like trying to get a picture out of your head, but never getting it right.

it's like finding the right words, but using it the wrong way.

it's like confiding to a friend, and hearing him spread the rumours.

it's like being confident for a test, but seeing the failing results.

it's like seeing the world in black and white, but ommiting the grey areas.

it's like searching for your greatest desire, and finding out that it's been with you the whole time.

it's like singing your favourite song, and realising that you got the lyrics all wrong.

it's like solving a math equation, but using the wrong formulae.

it's like dancing with an injured ankle; writing with an inkless pen;

it's like spelling without alphabets; talking in different tongues.

it's like i'm the storyteller, telling the truths, lies and in betweens.

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today's a plain boring day.

and people got me thinking bout love.

Labels: /:, bored, emo, epiphany, notes, poem, random, sick, thoughts, tired

written on
10:03 PM

Monday, August 17, 2009

DONE!

shall sleep now. nights :D

Labels: happy

written on
11:10 PM

GTA

222 more words!

i can do it. (i hope)

in terrible need of sleep and the fact that i just drank hot chocolate doesn't really help me to stay up ):

gah. but it's my thinking drink.

cos ribena ran out ._.

i'm have such a sad life now.

Labels: /:, goals, homework, notes, sick, tired, wants

written on
10:37 PM

Liveable & Vibrant Singapore (who am I joking?)

just shot down geog term assg part a.

reloading for part b.

Christine's mind is currently full of how Singapore brags about how good she is.

(because Christine has never seen how Singapore is as great as she says it is)

Labels: bored, happy, homework, tired

written on
9:26 PM

Sunday, August 16, 2009

classic pre-monday blues.

there but not quite.

i have this i want to die because i feel so sick,

but there must be more to life than this, so i don't want to feeling.

currently wishing to play sims 3 + sleep + not go to sch tmr.

gah.

Labels: school, sick, supernova, tired

written on
10:58 PM

geog

50 words.

i want to die.

Labels: homework, school, sick, tired

written on
9:42 PM

Saturday, August 15, 2009

dual sound

GAH.

my sister refuses to let me watch BOF in korean ._.

it sounds so much better in korean lah ._.

but i alr finished the whole series LOL.

but still ._.

okay. i'm whining now.

Labels: BOF, family, fangirl, random, rants

written on
9:42 PM

sore throat + weird thoughts

currently feeling happy + sad + confused at the same time.

i don't know what you're expecting of me,

i don't know what i'm supposed to do.

i don't know whether you're faking it,

i don't know where i need to go.

Labels: /:, feelings, rants, school, sick, thoughts, tired

written on
5:50 PM

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Danger of Death

I guess everything should have that warning sign.

currently still doing FA notes + feel like sleeping + giving up math assignment.

Labels: /:, homework, school, sj, tired

written on
9:54 PM

tests are finally OVER!

haha.

but now there's geog term assg and FA to chiong.

oh shit, and math ):

jiayou christine!

(i am turning zibi O.O)

Labels: happy, homework, random, school, sj

written on
8:21 PM

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Q = MC (Triangle) tita LOL

i am tired.

physics is okay.

i want to sleep.

bye.

LOL.

Labels: school, tired

written on
9:25 PM

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

a moment in time

alrighty. so i got home from the hospital not long ago.

went to spend the day with my lil bro while my mum went home to rest.

i am such a nice person LOL.

studied chinese there. there's a slight chance i might pass :D haha.

pulled my sole muscles this morning.

now it's twitching and having really sudden spasms of pain.

and it's painful ):

but today's a happy day cos i bought the national geographic magazine at $1.

great bargain LOL. haha. i love NGM's pictures.

left chem file + ACE to study.

which i am not caring about -.-

will sleep before 11 today: it's my reward for being nice.

+ i think i'm falling sick ):

Labels: bored, family, happy, homework, rants, school, sick, thoughts, tired, wants

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9:48 PM

Monday, August 10, 2009

up and down the merry go round.

i hate feeling helpless.

there's like so many things that i want to do but i can't,

so many things i should do, but it's not at the top of my priorities,

so many priorities that i can't remember all of them.

graah.

doing chinese compo now.

i'm sad.

Labels: /:, family, goals, homework, notes, wants

written on
10:13 PM

G.I. Joe

anyone wants to watch G.I. Joe with me?

i wanna get that waterbottle thing from GV for my bro.

LOL. yes, christine has become a cheapskate auntie due to peer influence.

oops ;)

Labels: random, wants

written on
7:33 PM

Sunday, August 9, 2009

really bad sore throat now.

i miss my lil bro ):

nights.

written on
11:42 PM

slightly salted tears

i'm feeling so much better now after that good long cry.

i wasn't even crying for me, hell, i was crying for the broken hearted.

for those who were here and then left,

for those who left and came back,

for those who never said goodbye.

i haven't felt such a clear head for so long:

life's been a real bad tease these days - i always had to be the person everyone expects me to be, and i'm afraid to fall of their expectations, though i'm tempted to just blow my cover.

there's been too much deception, too many lies;

so much indecisiveness, so many wrong choices.

but now, it seems clear that it doesn't matter what everyone else says or does.

i am me. no one can change that, not the people who backstabbed, not the people who left, not even the dear voice in my head that keeps shouting the worse thoughts out.

it seems as though i killed that voice.

and i have no idea whether that's a good thing.

i kinda miss those serious heart-to-heart talks i have with xl:

the ones where i'm crying here, and i know he's there to make me smile.

the ones where i could embarass myself real bad and know he won't bring it up ever again.

the ones where i never had to pretend to be okay.

but we all have to grow up and move on, don't we?

we all have to pick up the pieces and try to fix them back together.

we all have to leave a part of us to grow a new one.

it hurts, but it's for the better, i guess.

so here's saying goodbye to the fuckers that left because they were afraid of the consequences of their mindless actions.

here's saying goodbye to those that never said goodbye.

here's picking myself up from the ground, and not looking anywhere but away from you.

i'm not sorry even if you are.

you deserve everything, it might not be coming, but i believe someday, everything would come to light.

just you wait, my dear,

because revenge was never meant to be taken directly: it comes in separate doses.

Labels: BOF, clique, emo, epiphany, fangirl, feelings, friends, goals, happy, jihoo, notes, pissed, poem, prayers, rants, sick, sj, supernova, thoughts, wants

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12:22 AM

Saturday, August 8, 2009

suckers

i don't blame you for being you, but you can't blame me for hating it.

going out to all those that are pissing me off right now.

kudos to those who know who you are.

i hope it makes you sad.

Labels: bored, friends, notes, pissed, random, rants, sj, supernova

written on
5:48 PM

Friday, August 7, 2009

For(get)giveness

God made Man in the splitting image of Himself, thus God made Man able to forgive.

I can forgive you, but I secretly hope that this would haunt you forever.

Sometimes I think I should just tell everyone what happened, ruin your image, etc.

Sometimes I think I should tell my mum.

Sometimes revenge does sound sweet.

Sometimes, forgiveness doesn't come from the heart.

So fuck you, and fuck off.

Labels: bored, clique, epiphany, feelings, FREAKED OUT BY BC, friends, notes, pissed, prayers, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

written on
10:53 PM

hairband headphones & other confusing things

"What a Catch, Donnie" video's not out yet ):

Pete promised august 6. I am so disappointed in him, tsktsk.

haha.

on the other hand, had a really fufilling day today (:

i feel saturated with patriotism + SMC 1 + shopping, haha.

i think i scared deborah pretty badly, though, with my confusion LOL.

walked the whole orchard ion + art friends + heeren, and my pumas killed my calves.

ion's pretty cool. just don't wear uniforms/casual wear + act rich.

haha. or you'll be stared at.

i love my hairband headphones <3

and artbox.

and deborah and kellie.

and smc 1.

and JIHOO 8)

goodness, i think i'm still confused.

Labels: church, clique, fangirl, feelings, happy, jihoo, notes, random, school

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9:56 PM

Thursday, August 6, 2009

;)

finished downloading bof!

haha. most of it, anyway.

left the 5 yr later special & soundtracks ;)

shall go sleep now.

tmr's a long day, unfortunately.

Labels: fangirl, happy, jihoo, tired, wants

written on
10:57 PM

magic moment

Wood type: yew
Length: 15 inches
Core: Dragon Heartstring

get your own wand!

sudden obsession haha.

i want one ):

45 bucks, birthday present, anyone ;)

Labels: fangirl, happy, random, Tom Felton, wants

written on
8:42 PM

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

and i can't help it that you're looking like an angel

craving for sleep, jihoo and good grades for tmr's tests.

i'm such a greedy little girl, haha.

seriously addicted to watching BOF now: i think jihoo's damn cute. LOL.

and yijung *hyperventilates* hahahahaha.

oops. i'm procrastinating now X:

shall go download BOF + memorise solubility rules + hope & pray to pass trigo & ABS tests.

oh, and btw, i tyco-ed macbeth popquiz: 19/20, and i never finished reading the book ;)

Labels: BOF, crushes, fangirl, happy, homework, jihoo, school, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

written on
10:07 PM

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

fangirl syndrome

oops. i got hooked on BOF hahahaha.

i think ji hoo's nicer than jun pyo lol.

i've got a thing for guys with dyed hair ><

i'm supposed to be studying chem now.

bye love :D

Labels: happy, homework, notes, school, Tom Felton

written on
7:20 PM

Monday, August 3, 2009

hide and seek?

my tagboard is missing on my browser ):

today was pretty nice.

i'll try to post more later: off to dinner :)

mama cooked my favorite soup <3

Labels: family, happy, rants

written on
6:27 PM

Sunday, August 2, 2009

You're my Prince of Peace

like a child letting go of a helium balloon:

we thought we had it all,

clenching the little ribboned string in our tiny fists,

thinking we'll never let go of this tiny piece of happiness in our hands.

and then something happens that makes us loosen that death clench,

and up goes the balloon, flying higher and higher and higher.

further from our grasps, rising above our heads;

losing that happiness we had.

but, like a child, we never stay sad for long - something else will distract us, all too soon.

that was POP'09.

in that five hours, our instructors left us,

but there wasn't time to feel sad because now there's instructorhood to keep us busy.

and it's suddenly all too big a responsibility.

yes, i love the standard ones, but i don't know. it's an awful load for me.

but i'll try to keep the balloon in my hands this time round.

with little, childish innocence,

(shall i view the world:)

no more tinted glasses nor kaleidoscopes.

things shall be as they seem.

no more extra imagination,

nor a little too much consideration.

no, no more.

signing off with just a little faith, trust and pixie dust.

(God be with me.)

Labels: church, clique, emo, epiphany, family, goals, photos, school, sj, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

written on
9:55 PM

deleted.

all my pictures are gone.

because it failed to copy into my desktop.

and i deleted the photos in shunbin's camera.

and my uncle cleared his recycle bin.

i could just die now.

there were loads of awesome pictures in that batch of photos ):

and it hurts more than losing 100 bucks or something.

it's like all my effort + memories are gone.

and i really really really liked that batch of photos.

Labels: /:, emo, feelings, notes, photos, prayers, rants, supernova, tired, wants

written on
9:22 PM