fight of faith (♥)

Sunday, September 27, 2009

controversial

gay boys should be less hot, or not gay.

either that, or they should stop letting me know them cos they're making me fall head over heels with them ._.

broke my hiatus to say that,

and that high sugar levels = tired christine in 1 hour.

mug date with deborah was awesome; we should do it more often.

off to work on chinese. i'm still tired.

Labels: church, feelings, friends, notes, random, rants, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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Tuesday, September 22, 2009

8 reasons and a wish

right, so i haven't been updating this blog with mildly interesting posts these few days.

there are a few explanations to these, none of them pleasant, except one.

1. it's mugging period and everyone refuses to go out with me.

2. kellie rejects my mug dates ): (whyohwhy, kellie!)

3. don't have the desire to mug with anyone else.

4. been sick, and missed church for quite long.

5. have been mugging for physics/chem test (which i think i slightly flunked)

6. mousehunt is distracting me every 15 mins ;)

7. got addicted to flickr apps (oops haha)

8. been editing my wordpress. really pleased with it, and i love the URL. (this is the pleasant reason, btw)

so yeah. watch out for long hiatus/revelation of my wordpress :D

oh and Happy Birthday Tom Felton <3

aka draco malfoy aka the only guy xl sorta accepts that he's of high standards

(xl failed hyungjun/taylorlautner/jessemccartney/petewentz/etc)

so yeah, kudos to Tom Felton for making it to the hitlist, baby.

Labels: birthday, fangirl, feelings, happy, notes, school, sick, supernova, thoughts, tired, Tom Felton, wants

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Sunday, September 13, 2009

short stops in life

sakae, spring, simplicity.

currently seeking inspiration for birthday cards, one-liners and short writings.

holiday's ending in approximately one hour; i have accomplished nothing but procrastination and rest.

gonna have to stay up late tomorrow to finish up what's undone.

and i'm not looking forward to facing people again.

Labels: birthday, feelings, goals, homework, notes, photos, rants, supernova, thoughts

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Tuesday, September 8, 2009

i'm hurting to see you hurt.

and i have no idea where this shit is coming from.

Labels: emo, epiphany, feelings, friends, notes, rants, supernova

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"said i'll love you forever

forever is over"

- love drunk, boys like girls (♥)

i supposed that doesn't apply to our brains, cos this holiday's all about

yep.

from stochiometry to moments to development.

christine's gonna mug hard this sept hols (^o^)

leaving for malaysia tonight, so i'll be missing:

1. std 1's first outing T.T

2. squad outing

3. AOP

4. Kbox with Haonan

5.CG girls' outing

sad ):

but malaysia means:

1. nice food

2. huge shops with nice stuff

3. cheap movies

4. pretty clothes

5. slack \o/

hahaha.

currently obsessed with emoticons and such. \(^_^)/

oh and harvest moon mfomt gba haha.

played it until the batt ran out, oops haha.

okay off to pack :D

Labels: /:, bored, church, clique, feelings, friends, goals, happy, homework, notes, photos, random, school, sj, smc1, thoughts, wants

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Sunday, September 6, 2009

echoes

i really don't know what to do anymore.

couldn't sleep until 1am last night:

there were shivers down my spine and screaming in my head.

honestly, i have no idea what's happening, but sometimes, i wish i could just quit this whole thing.

so from 2300 to 0100 i was just lying on the bed,

tossing and turning and praying and trying to get the screaming out,

but it didn't really work and i fell asleep cos of exhaustion.

i'm really scared there'll be a relapse tonight.

missed church today cos i forgot to charge my phone in the chaos last night,

and so the alarm didn't ring.

went to tampines with family,

bought paper to make your birthday card.

i don't know how to say sorry to you,

because you really ought to say sorry to me too.

Labels: /:, bored, church, emo, epiphany, family, feelings, friends, happy, notes, pissed, prayers, sj, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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11:00 PM

Saturday, September 5, 2009

untold truths and halfway beliefs

today was semi-awesome.

training was really fun, but i'm really sorry for pissing you guys off ):

today just didn't start right.

and i really don't like people interupting me.

ah i don't know.

it's just that i think the seniors are right and everyone else thinks that they are wrong.

and i don't know how to disagree with them and still see eye to eye with them.

rt without after training rants to haonan just doesn't work out well.

and i think my love for standard ones doubled today haha.

because their popquiz answer was damn cute.

and when you strip away their irritatingness/shyness/quietness,

they're all really just who we were.

and that's pretty comforting, i guess.

(i just wish that you can see it too)

quote that stuck during FA: "YOU ALL MUST BE SCIENTIFIC OKAY?"

haha. meaning no "jaw, shoulder blade, shin" and stuff haha.

post training lunch with daniel & yongsheng:

DOUBLE CHEESEBURGER EVM UPSIZE WITH VARYING PREFERENCES

haha. aweeeeesome :D

then rushed to lido to meet kellie & pearl and watched G-force 3D

pretty good show, and Shaw is my favefavefave theatre now haha.

(+ Time traveller's wife & Alice in Wonderland with Deborah)

(+ many other awesome movies coming out :D)

then sakae dinner + extra large food hahahaha.

you have to see it to know how funny it actually is lol.

and i'm damn bloody tired now):

Labels: /:, clique, emo, epiphany, feelings, friends, goals, happy, homework, notes, pissed, random, rants, school, sj, smc1, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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Friday, September 4, 2009

Because sometimes, what we want contrasts with who we are

If I were in the shoes of someone else, I'll hate myself.

If you get what I mean.

Today wasn't particularly good nor bad.

Just a normal, pretty boring day.

Gah. why do I even bother?

everything's in my head, and I can't type it out right now.

Labels: epiphany, feelings, notes, rants, school, tired

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Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Superfluous feelings

Christine is sad cos:

1. She flunked her tests.

2. She lost her correction tape.

3. She has to stop liking guys that leave because it makes her sadder.

4. She's broke.

5. Just because.

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school brings my mind off things, i guess.

and after tmr, it's shopping :D

for xinyi + bro + leshan's presents haha.

Christine loves shopping :)

Labels: /:, feelings, friends, happy, random, school, thoughts, tired, wants

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Tuesday, September 1, 2009

past friends, present friends

i have reasons aplenty to hate you,

to disclose your secrets,

to make you look bad;

but the only reason i don't is that otherwise,

my present friends might leave.

and that's why it hurts so bad.

because it's not you who's hurting me,

it's their ignorance that hurts.

Labels: /:, emo, epiphany, feelings, friends, notes, supernova, thoughts

written on
10:00 PM

not unhappy birthday

i can't stand how ironic it is that it's joe trohman's birthday.

nor the fact that the moment i started to type this it started to pour.

let's not read too much into this, eh?

and it's just when i decided to forget how fucked up you were.

on the other hand,

happy birthday Zhen Ting & Joe Trohman :)

and i just realised all my best friends like green.

coincidental?

Labels: birthday, epiphany, feelings, notes, rants, supernova, thoughts

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Monday, August 31, 2009

restless minds & tired souls

christine's feeling slightly sad.

i don't know why i mind so much,

but it seems like the people i love have been letting me down a lot these days.

i'm sorry i lie, i'm sorry i'm a liar, i'm sorry i lied.

i'm afraid of being alone.

i miss 6A'06/P6 clique/proper conversations with xl

yes, i'm a sucker for nostalgia.

Labels: /:, clique, emo, epiphany, feelings, FREAKED OUT BY BC, friends, notes, random, school, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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Sunday, August 30, 2009

knock knock, who's there?

okay. major freak incident just now.

was really deep into reading macbeth

when i heard a knocking noise and the doorbell.

and then i went to the door and there was nobody there.

damn scary.

and i didn't dare to open the door cos there's nobody but me at home.

scaryscaryscaryscary.

and i still can't contact my mum /:

Labels: feelings, notes, random, supernova, thoughts, tired

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just get lost

i just went through my whole archives for this blog.

i take back what i said about loving 3B more than 2C.

i bet if i cried in 3B, nobody would notice, unlike cresmic.

i don't know. i just miss having people to fall back into, and interesting things to talk about.

it's just really really putting off to hear about your ex-classmates talk about how funny their class was;

who was dating who in the class;

how (insertnamehere) did something so stupid everyone laughed;

how they fit in in their class.

and here i am just sitting in this desolate place listening to the teacher ramble.

it really doesn't make much of a gossip topic, y'know?

Labels: /:, bored, clique, feelings, friends, random, rants, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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Saturday, August 29, 2009

but in the end, everyone ends up alone

3B sucks hardcore.

I'ld give anything to get 1C back.

hell, i don't even mind having 2C right now.

i mean, face it,

Cresmic phototaking was always pure fun:

no matter how screwed our photos were,

no matter where we're placed, it doesn't matter.

Cresmic chalet had almost full attendance,

minus the few who had to return to China.

Cresmic halloween party had people dressing up and a proper bbq.

Cresmic lessons were full of nonsense and breaks were filled with TorD/fangirling/shouting across the class.

Cresmic interclass really involved the whole class.

Cresmic felt like home,

but 3B is like... hopeless.

which class has a name like BANANAS?

there's no meaning to it other than this yellow disgusting fruit.

(i'm sorry i do hate bananas oh so very much.)

which class tee took forever to make, costs a hell load, and doesn't even last long?

which class had so little supporters during interclass,

that there wasn't any motivation for us to stay on and play?

which class's class blog is dead and no one bothers to check it?

which class chalet has FOUR people attending and has a 25bucks per person, non inclusive of food & activities fee?

which class makes absolutely no sound during lessons?

which class saps the whole zi-high energy from you cos they're just so fucking quiet and dull?

which class hates school celebrations cos they're a waste of time and rather have formal lessons?

which class doesn't even bother to bond with each other?

which class sucks so much, there's really no point in calling those 36 people a class anymore?

oh right, my class.

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y'know what?

next year let's just choose all the unenthu people to be the class comm,

let them know how hopeless it is to try to bond this class.

they can be the ones planning the class outings (mugger dates, perhaps),

they can go do all the seating arrangements shit

(doesn't matter who you sit with, they're probably clinging on to every shit that the teacher is saying and can't be bothered to listen to you talk),

they can do all the mass smsing/the events planning/announcements making.

it wouldn't matter how screwed the class becomes:

it wouldn't get any worse than this.

oh, and you know what?

i have suggestions on who to choose.

(they'll fit the role perfectly)

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no, this is not a hate post.

this is just me voicing out what i really think about 3B as a whole.

i thank God that there are people inside who are like me,

and it's really nice to know that i'm not just some weird over enthu person ;)

Labels: /:, bored, feelings, friends, God, pissed, random, rants, school, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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Friday, August 28, 2009

i love irony.

http://clandestineindustries.com/xr/body.php?module=product_details&pid=1528&id=69

me wants haha.

awesome design, i tell you .__.

pete wentz is my role model, minus the shotgun marriage.

LOL.

alrighty, off to sleep now.

really really tired. /:

Labels: feelings, fob, goals, supernova, tired, wants

written on
11:14 PM

sending my ♥ out

i'm really proud of the standard ones today.

i never knew that it was this satisfying seeing them improve beyond our expectations,

and i never knew how much i actually cared for them.

Standard ones, if you ever see this post, keep up your spirit today,

with this kind of spirit, i'm sure that you guys can achieve great heights ♥

on the other hand,

i really miss the standard threes.

i never thought that cheering was important; that just sitting down and whining to each other was important,

but these three weeks apart from each other,

it made me realise that whatever joy we get from our cadets is really different from what we get from each other.

standard threes oh nine, serve with pride|together as one (♥)

smc one, i love you guys.

even though we quarrel and fight and all that stuff,

deep down inside, i think that we make a really nice team,

and that we can tackle all problems we face, yeah ;)

many ♥s for you guys: ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

one for each of us.

Labels: epiphany, feelings, happy, random, rants, sj, smc1, supernova, thoughts, wants

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Wednesday, August 26, 2009

promised pixels. xoxo

saved this as draft last night and forgot to post it.

i'm tired of seeing all my friends walk ahead of me and never turning back.

life's just one long rat race, ain't it?

it's just running to have the highest popularity, having the bests friends.

studying at the best college, getting the best job.

it's really putting me off that the people i trust are the people i should beware most,

and that best friends are those you don't know well.

ah, it's just one big confusing concept that i don't want to understand.

Labels: /:, emo, epiphany, feelings, friends, supernova, thoughts

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Tuesday, August 25, 2009

geography

my awesome geog notes.

which are only half done, and i think i'm gonna flunk the test.

currently printing out notes for the other topics so i can study them my way.

i'm killing trees here /:

head is so full and eyes so dense that i think i can just fall asleep sitting.

goodnight world (full of muggers and failures)

Labels: /:, feelings, homework, notes, school, supernova, tired

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11:34 PM

Monday, August 24, 2009

age to age He stands; and time is in His hands

takes from outside Vera's house, Changi Airport, and class.

i have the urge to just walk the whole of singapore and snap pics haha.

i want bridges and gates, trees and skies. (and seas + sunsets :D)

and i'm determined to take dawn shots during the sept hols, anyone game for it?

haha. alright, back to jian bao now (:

Labels: feelings, happy, homework, notes, random, supernova, wants

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