fight of faith (♥)

Watched BBYD for lecture today.

Why were you crying?

Because you're the video was scary?

Because you were afraid what would happen to the students?

Because you wondered how someone could turn into such a monster?

Because it was to much for you to handle?

Or because it was so real; so possible?

(it sounds so much like your life)

I didn't get why people were laughing.

What was there to laugh at?

People getting canned?

People being publicly disgraced?

People dying?

People killing?

People not behaving like people.

(it's not sadism. it's just dark humor)

I don't know.

BBYD just affects me.

I cried in lecture.

It wasn't sympathy, it wasn't understanding how it felt.

It was seeing your life playing on screen and denying it.

It was feeling all f***ed up inside,

and having friends you can't talk to about it.

Met ShunBin at woodlands mrt.

technically, he met me. but w/e.

I never saw him until he tapped me at the escalator.

it kinda reminded me of how I never saw God till he made the first move.

How I would never see God unless I made the effort to turn.

How I lost God again this week.

jeez.

went back with amanda + huijun + jiamin today.

best joke ever:

idk who: "sthsth HUANGTAO'S GFs sthsth"

me: "YUFENG!"

and then died of laughter.

current best song ever:

It's alright, it's okay - Ashley Tisdale

love the video, love the song.

tell me why she's my fave girl again?

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5:30 PM