fight of faith (♥)

Sunday, September 27, 2009

controversial

gay boys should be less hot, or not gay.

either that, or they should stop letting me know them cos they're making me fall head over heels with them ._.

broke my hiatus to say that,

and that high sugar levels = tired christine in 1 hour.

mug date with deborah was awesome; we should do it more often.

off to work on chinese. i'm still tired.

Labels: church, feelings, friends, notes, random, rants, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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Tuesday, September 8, 2009

"said i'll love you forever

forever is over"

- love drunk, boys like girls (♥)

i supposed that doesn't apply to our brains, cos this holiday's all about

yep.

from stochiometry to moments to development.

christine's gonna mug hard this sept hols (^o^)

leaving for malaysia tonight, so i'll be missing:

1. std 1's first outing T.T

2. squad outing

3. AOP

4. Kbox with Haonan

5.CG girls' outing

sad ):

but malaysia means:

1. nice food

2. huge shops with nice stuff

3. cheap movies

4. pretty clothes

5. slack \o/

hahaha.

currently obsessed with emoticons and such. \(^_^)/

oh and harvest moon mfomt gba haha.

played it until the batt ran out, oops haha.

okay off to pack :D

Labels: /:, bored, church, clique, feelings, friends, goals, happy, homework, notes, photos, random, school, sj, smc1, thoughts, wants

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Sunday, September 6, 2009

echoes

i really don't know what to do anymore.

couldn't sleep until 1am last night:

there were shivers down my spine and screaming in my head.

honestly, i have no idea what's happening, but sometimes, i wish i could just quit this whole thing.

so from 2300 to 0100 i was just lying on the bed,

tossing and turning and praying and trying to get the screaming out,

but it didn't really work and i fell asleep cos of exhaustion.

i'm really scared there'll be a relapse tonight.

missed church today cos i forgot to charge my phone in the chaos last night,

and so the alarm didn't ring.

went to tampines with family,

bought paper to make your birthday card.

i don't know how to say sorry to you,

because you really ought to say sorry to me too.

Labels: /:, bored, church, emo, epiphany, family, feelings, friends, happy, notes, pissed, prayers, sj, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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Friday, August 7, 2009

hairband headphones & other confusing things

"What a Catch, Donnie" video's not out yet ):

Pete promised august 6. I am so disappointed in him, tsktsk.

haha.

on the other hand, had a really fufilling day today (:

i feel saturated with patriotism + SMC 1 + shopping, haha.

i think i scared deborah pretty badly, though, with my confusion LOL.

walked the whole orchard ion + art friends + heeren, and my pumas killed my calves.

ion's pretty cool. just don't wear uniforms/casual wear + act rich.

haha. or you'll be stared at.

i love my hairband headphones <3

and artbox.

and deborah and kellie.

and smc 1.

and JIHOO 8)

goodness, i think i'm still confused.

Labels: church, clique, fangirl, feelings, happy, jihoo, notes, random, school

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Sunday, August 2, 2009

You're my Prince of Peace

like a child letting go of a helium balloon:

we thought we had it all,

clenching the little ribboned string in our tiny fists,

thinking we'll never let go of this tiny piece of happiness in our hands.

and then something happens that makes us loosen that death clench,

and up goes the balloon, flying higher and higher and higher.

further from our grasps, rising above our heads;

losing that happiness we had.

but, like a child, we never stay sad for long - something else will distract us, all too soon.

that was POP'09.

in that five hours, our instructors left us,

but there wasn't time to feel sad because now there's instructorhood to keep us busy.

and it's suddenly all too big a responsibility.

yes, i love the standard ones, but i don't know. it's an awful load for me.

but i'll try to keep the balloon in my hands this time round.

with little, childish innocence,

(shall i view the world:)

no more tinted glasses nor kaleidoscopes.

things shall be as they seem.

no more extra imagination,

nor a little too much consideration.

no, no more.

signing off with just a little faith, trust and pixie dust.

(God be with me.)

Labels: church, clique, emo, epiphany, family, goals, photos, school, sj, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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Wednesday, July 15, 2009

fight of faith

just go away, will you?

it's the one night i get to relax a bit,

the one night i may sleep early, and you have to choke me with responsibilities.

i'm sorry that i'm not as perfect as you thought.

but i'm only human.

-----

took my IC photo today.

now i have this weird shortish fringey thing.

which i have no idea how to tie up.

and i'm really really tired.

Labels: church, feelings, notes, thoughts, tired

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Sunday, July 12, 2009

So give me a dose of courage, and get me a shot of adventure.

so, ice age 3 with amanda, kellie and pearl yesteday,

then fleatique with kellie and deborah :D

as bugis junction says "i (heart) retail therapy"

haha(:

cleaned my room today.

it looks nice and bright now.

and i lovelovelove my heart locket.

wore it the whole of today.

haha. it's special :D

but i haven't thought of anything to put inside yet.

church tmr.

i hope service doesn't make me fall asleep X:

and L!ME with deborah & theo tmr?

Labels: church, family, feelings, God, happy, notes, tired, wants

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Monday, July 6, 2009

Late(r)

migraine prediction was correct.

panadols didn't work, and i think i might die of overdosage.

i'm trying out my sister's way of sticking the muscle ache sticker thing on the head.

no effect so far, 'cept that it burns so much that i don't feel the headache.

and there's this really bitter taste in my mouth that i can't get rid of.

is this some after-effect or something?

gah. i just want to runaway and hide in a hole or something.

it feels like there's the white rabbit repeating "i'm late, i'm late" in my head.

it's 10.35pm. not late in usual context, but i'm feeling rather sick.

there's this chinese assignment that i really have to work on 'cos it was due last friday. that's late.

there's idmi meeting tomorrow, and i have to rush some thing out. (late)

i feel like just falling asleep and not waking up; who cares if i'm late?

late; late; late.

i feel like i'm supposed to do something now, but i don't know what.

it's not something on my mental checklist.

it's like God calling me to do something, but i'm disobeying Him for human wants.

and i know i'm supposed to do something about it because i know it's not right, but i just want to rebel.

i don't like being diabolical.

i need some time on my own.

(it's the after-effects of acting)

Labels: church, emo, epiphany, family, feelings, friends, God, notes, prayers, school, sick, thoughts, tired, wants

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Sunday, July 5, 2009

i loved church today.

youth leading was really different from usual services.

really tired now.

and i haven't even touched chinese.

i think i'm majorly screwed.

Labels: /:, church, feelings, happy, homework, random, thoughts, tired

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Friday, July 3, 2009

here at my side

first proper post this week.

i'm officially not sitting with leshan anymore ):

i miss talking to her during lessons.

No offence, but i still haven't found a common topic with felicia.

and there's nobody to tutor me in math anymore ._.

and i'm in the first row. but it's a can-sleep position. haha.

so not that bad (:

i'm handing in chinese late and i don't really care anymore.

but i had fun chionging with wuyue & amanda today.

photocopy machine!

haha. our new toy.

having a slight sore throat now.

spamming lozenges in the hope that it'll save my throat for tmr.

getting screened by the teachers is actually quite a scary thing.

haha. i'm getting cold feet X:

ah well.

shall brush teeth and sleep soon.

first night in days that i'm sleeping early.

yay (:

Labels: church, clique, feelings, happy, school, tired

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Tuesday, June 9, 2009

S is for shop/study/sleep/schedule (sorry)

I'm so tired I should go to sleep right now.

But I'm waiting for my family.

Study date + Shopping with Kellie for BTS on thurs.

Sorry Deborah. Next Wednesday?

Yeah. My schedule's that packed ):

ah well. watching tv while waiting now.

tata world.

Labels: church, clique, family, tired

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Sunday, June 7, 2009

Searching for the equilibrium

it feels as if I'm trying to make everything back to normal,

but I kinda forgot that normal wasn't just me.

-----

idled today away.

Sims 3 + fruitless attempt to go out to buy the keyboard for my sister.

and I kinda failed at making agar agar.

It wasn't sweet enough.

Ah well.

New discoveries everyday.

Yesterday I found out that you can't wash socks with a washing machine.

Today I found out that oil was necessary to make pancakes not stick on the pan.

(even on non-stick pans)

and stuff like agar agar took about 5mins to make, but very long to cool.

And that my POSB had a withdrawal limit of 200 bucks.

.__.

possible study session with Kellie to finish Hols hw,

and dress shopping with Deborah?

+ superteens workshop with Kellie 8D

I want scrapbooking classes again.

the previous time was so fun, haha.

okay. I have to go check on my washing now ._.

I don't like being alone at home, in case you still haven't realised.

Labels: church, clique, emo, epiphany, family, feelings, friends, homework, random, rants, thoughts, wants

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Homerun for the storm.

lightning strikes and thunder scores.

my whole house's electricity just went out cos of the lightning.

restoring it is easy, but now my dvd recorder's memory's wiped out.

lalala.

seeking help from my mama using msn now.

oh and did i mention my nails are orange?

haha yeah.

i wanted to paint red after i painted orange,

but oh well.

THERE'S ALWAYS NEXT WEEK ;)

Labels: church, family, happy, random, wants

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Saturday, June 6, 2009

packing to go downstairs now.

I'm bringing my laptop along cos there's sims 3.

LOL.

okay.

hopefully I can bring it along.

cos I don't know whether we're playing it or not X:

So I'll settle for twilight 8D

Labels: /:, church, random

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A series of (Un)fortunate Events

what's left of me, then?

I just found out bike hike's cancelled.

for me, at the very least.

A very turn of unfortunate, or fortunate, events.

Was supposed to wake up from my nap at 5pm and leave at 5.30,

but i didn't hear my alarm ring, so i woke up at 5.40,

to find out that xinyi smsed me at 5 & called me 4mins ago to tell me bike hike's cancelled.

(because we couldn't cycle)

So here I am sitting in my room,

unsure of what to do.

I could go to the sleepover downstairs,

but I was so looking forward to bike hike that I wasn't looking forward to that,

and now I'm not really enthusiastic about going down ._.

but it would mean company in this pretty lonely world here.

oh. and I realise I'm missing band concert.

Again.

For nothing.

giving myself 10mins to decide what to do later on.

Labels: church, emo, feelings, sick, sj

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Sunday, May 31, 2009

it don't feel right, when you're gone

had lots and lots of fun with 2C clique (:

never been so happy since you-know-what.

i missed you guys /:

more outings soon, yeah?

spent the morning at church,

afternoon shopping with kellie,

and night with clique :D

natm2 was a pretty good movie,

despite the fact that most of the time i was laughing at the weird people beside me

(who laugh at things that aren't funny and zihigh DURING the movie)

ate B&Js,

used BROWN ENVELOPES to wipe our hands LOL.

and laughed at our own jokes. haha.

then went home 8D

-----

sometimes, we try so hard to see things that are far away, that we forget to admire those near us.

Labels: church, clique, epiphany, feelings, friends, happy

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Tuesday, May 5, 2009

before i forget,

VERA! ily :D

ty for the bag of encouragement and tidbits.

haha.

it's really very nice(:

AND I WAS MUGGIN WHEN YOU CAME AND DELIVERED IT.

haha. and looked super unglam too -.-

anw, geog script almost done.

SJ proposal + physics left.

Labels: church, feelings, friends, homework, sj, thoughts

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christine's everyday of the week 8D

christine's being a good girl and rewriting all her la lecture notes.

and mugging physics after that.

and then ACE which i have no idea how to mug for.

yes, she's trying desperately to pull up her gpa.

but it's a tad bit too late.

nice day today :D

lunch with 1cresmic LOL.

wuyue + shaun + wangcong.

walked to mcs with pearl + huijun + amanda.

died of laughter with 1C.

haha.

OXYMORON : OXYBITCH : OXYPIMPLECREAM!

and uh. AIRCON + Lady Gaga who's a les.

and wuyue, I 不稀罕 your degree okay?

haha. i PhD alr 8D

i want clique breakfast every monday,

1C lunch every tuesday,

clique lunch @ hostel every wednesday,

Benny training every thursday,

Std 3'09 every friday,

family (shopping) session every saturday,

and church every sunday :D

christine will be very happy if that happens every week.

oh shit.

i realise have to chiong proposal with daniel tonight D:

shall go mug more now. *wears geek glasses*

Labels: church, clique, happy, school, sj

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Sunday, May 3, 2009

OH MY!

Christine finished her 演讲词after 2hrs,

is dying of cough + runny nose,

doesn't have a fever so she can't skip sch,

and hotmail AND facebook crashed on her.

good day today.

church was being horribly sick,

sniffed + sneezed + slept through half the sermon X:

pastor kenny and flu medicine just don't go well with alertness.

after service went to mamashop with deborah & kimberlyn.

laughed at pink dolphin + half full fruit juice cartons.

and talked about SYDDA's concert.

I'll try to make it kay, dear?

came home, prepared to leave for Charlotte's,

found out that sick ppl can't go to her hse -.-

stayed home and project-ed the whole afternoon.

the rest you pretty much already know.

i'm falling asleep happy tonight.

and i still want a camera pretty badly /:

Labels: church, happy, notes, rants, school, sick, wants

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Sunday, April 26, 2009

you are holy, holy

oh my mama.

spent the day after church mugging.

finished PHYSICS ASSG (minus 3 questions)

and MATH ASSG (minus some parts that idk how to do)

and mugged a bit of GEOG.

left chem mindmap + more geog mugging.

head kinda groggy now.

even after 3hrs of sleep D:

cross fingers and hope to get well soon.

had homeblessing for CG.

pretty good results with Debs (:

youth alpha 8D

i shall drag some ppl to go with me O:

okay.

back to researching for mindmaps and stuff.

Labels: church, happy, homework, school, sick

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