fight of faith (♥)

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

"said i'll love you forever

forever is over"

- love drunk, boys like girls (♥)

i supposed that doesn't apply to our brains, cos this holiday's all about

yep.

from stochiometry to moments to development.

christine's gonna mug hard this sept hols (^o^)

leaving for malaysia tonight, so i'll be missing:

1. std 1's first outing T.T

2. squad outing

3. AOP

4. Kbox with Haonan

5.CG girls' outing

sad ):

but malaysia means:

1. nice food

2. huge shops with nice stuff

3. cheap movies

4. pretty clothes

5. slack \o/

hahaha.

currently obsessed with emoticons and such. \(^_^)/

oh and harvest moon mfomt gba haha.

played it until the batt ran out, oops haha.

okay off to pack :D

Labels: /:, bored, church, clique, feelings, friends, goals, happy, homework, notes, photos, random, school, sj, smc1, thoughts, wants

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Sunday, September 6, 2009

echoes

i really don't know what to do anymore.

couldn't sleep until 1am last night:

there were shivers down my spine and screaming in my head.

honestly, i have no idea what's happening, but sometimes, i wish i could just quit this whole thing.

so from 2300 to 0100 i was just lying on the bed,

tossing and turning and praying and trying to get the screaming out,

but it didn't really work and i fell asleep cos of exhaustion.

i'm really scared there'll be a relapse tonight.

missed church today cos i forgot to charge my phone in the chaos last night,

and so the alarm didn't ring.

went to tampines with family,

bought paper to make your birthday card.

i don't know how to say sorry to you,

because you really ought to say sorry to me too.

Labels: /:, bored, church, emo, epiphany, family, feelings, friends, happy, notes, pissed, prayers, sj, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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Saturday, September 5, 2009

untold truths and halfway beliefs

today was semi-awesome.

training was really fun, but i'm really sorry for pissing you guys off ):

today just didn't start right.

and i really don't like people interupting me.

ah i don't know.

it's just that i think the seniors are right and everyone else thinks that they are wrong.

and i don't know how to disagree with them and still see eye to eye with them.

rt without after training rants to haonan just doesn't work out well.

and i think my love for standard ones doubled today haha.

because their popquiz answer was damn cute.

and when you strip away their irritatingness/shyness/quietness,

they're all really just who we were.

and that's pretty comforting, i guess.

(i just wish that you can see it too)

quote that stuck during FA: "YOU ALL MUST BE SCIENTIFIC OKAY?"

haha. meaning no "jaw, shoulder blade, shin" and stuff haha.

post training lunch with daniel & yongsheng:

DOUBLE CHEESEBURGER EVM UPSIZE WITH VARYING PREFERENCES

haha. aweeeeesome :D

then rushed to lido to meet kellie & pearl and watched G-force 3D

pretty good show, and Shaw is my favefavefave theatre now haha.

(+ Time traveller's wife & Alice in Wonderland with Deborah)

(+ many other awesome movies coming out :D)

then sakae dinner + extra large food hahahaha.

you have to see it to know how funny it actually is lol.

and i'm damn bloody tired now):

Labels: /:, clique, emo, epiphany, feelings, friends, goals, happy, homework, notes, pissed, random, rants, school, sj, smc1, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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Thursday, September 3, 2009

crazy emo kias

confirm, plus chop, failed math test.

and i'm procrastinating.

supposed to do chinese 小练笔 now /:

sian leh. haha.

tmr phototaking then ***** :D

secret haha omg. this is damn lame.

christine has gone insaneeeeeee hahaha.

and i lived with a day of neck pain. lol.

cannot turn at all -.-

lalala shall do chinese now.

oh and sec 1 camp comm meeting was fun!

hahahaha.

makes me feel like searching for ghost stories in dhs X:

lolll.

Labels: /:, bored, friends, happy, notes, school, sick, thoughts, tired, wants

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Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Superfluous feelings

Christine is sad cos:

1. She flunked her tests.

2. She lost her correction tape.

3. She has to stop liking guys that leave because it makes her sadder.

4. She's broke.

5. Just because.

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school brings my mind off things, i guess.

and after tmr, it's shopping :D

for xinyi + bro + leshan's presents haha.

Christine loves shopping :)

Labels: /:, feelings, friends, happy, random, school, thoughts, tired, wants

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Tuesday, September 1, 2009

past friends, present friends

i have reasons aplenty to hate you,

to disclose your secrets,

to make you look bad;

but the only reason i don't is that otherwise,

my present friends might leave.

and that's why it hurts so bad.

because it's not you who's hurting me,

it's their ignorance that hurts.

Labels: /:, emo, epiphany, feelings, friends, notes, supernova, thoughts

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Monday, August 31, 2009

restless minds & tired souls

christine's feeling slightly sad.

i don't know why i mind so much,

but it seems like the people i love have been letting me down a lot these days.

i'm sorry i lie, i'm sorry i'm a liar, i'm sorry i lied.

i'm afraid of being alone.

i miss 6A'06/P6 clique/proper conversations with xl

yes, i'm a sucker for nostalgia.

Labels: /:, clique, emo, epiphany, feelings, FREAKED OUT BY BC, friends, notes, random, school, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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never so happy; never so sad

Pixel Post:

Teachers Day 09 @ DHS + Swensens @ ION Orchard

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more @http://www.facebook.com/photos.php?id=607767709

friends only ;)

wordy post after my shower, i stink now haha oops.

Labels: /:, clique, emo, friends, happy, notes, photos, random, school, supernova, tired

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trigo graphs & penthouse lids

i have given up chionging math assg and decided to go to sch and copy X:

i have no idea how to do the questions as a result of not listening in class.

i am such a failure in math. lol.

shall go sleep now.

not looking forward to tmr's celebrations; waiting for ice-cream buffet with wuyue :D

Labels: /:, homework, school, tired

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Sunday, August 30, 2009

werewolf ;)

currently feeling really out of breath,

sorta like a panic attack, but i don't know what for.

it's like i'm missing something;

something really important, but i can't remember what.

it's like i've lost some part of me.

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on the other hand, new moon trailer is awesome

team taylor lautner//jacob black ftw :D

Labels: /:, bored, fangirl, happy, notes, random, rants, supernova, thoughts

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oh, i'm sorry, did you say something?

feeling really fucked up now.

like i've been living in isolation for so long,

i've forgotten how to be a friend.

but i really don't want to compromise with this.

i asked you out, you either follow my plans, or disappear.

i've got my whole week's plans planned,

you're not going to ruin it.

Labels: /:, friends, rants, supernova, wants

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in thunder, lightning or in rain.

currently taking a break from studying macbeth.

it's not going very well, though:

read 35 pages and fell asleep for half an hour /:

christine shall persevere and read on :D

and true to the title, it's pouring over here in woodlands.

Labels: /:, school, tired

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1:05 PM

just get lost

i just went through my whole archives for this blog.

i take back what i said about loving 3B more than 2C.

i bet if i cried in 3B, nobody would notice, unlike cresmic.

i don't know. i just miss having people to fall back into, and interesting things to talk about.

it's just really really putting off to hear about your ex-classmates talk about how funny their class was;

who was dating who in the class;

how (insertnamehere) did something so stupid everyone laughed;

how they fit in in their class.

and here i am just sitting in this desolate place listening to the teacher ramble.

it really doesn't make much of a gossip topic, y'know?

Labels: /:, bored, clique, feelings, friends, random, rants, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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12:06 AM

Saturday, August 29, 2009

but in the end, everyone ends up alone

3B sucks hardcore.

I'ld give anything to get 1C back.

hell, i don't even mind having 2C right now.

i mean, face it,

Cresmic phototaking was always pure fun:

no matter how screwed our photos were,

no matter where we're placed, it doesn't matter.

Cresmic chalet had almost full attendance,

minus the few who had to return to China.

Cresmic halloween party had people dressing up and a proper bbq.

Cresmic lessons were full of nonsense and breaks were filled with TorD/fangirling/shouting across the class.

Cresmic interclass really involved the whole class.

Cresmic felt like home,

but 3B is like... hopeless.

which class has a name like BANANAS?

there's no meaning to it other than this yellow disgusting fruit.

(i'm sorry i do hate bananas oh so very much.)

which class tee took forever to make, costs a hell load, and doesn't even last long?

which class had so little supporters during interclass,

that there wasn't any motivation for us to stay on and play?

which class's class blog is dead and no one bothers to check it?

which class chalet has FOUR people attending and has a 25bucks per person, non inclusive of food & activities fee?

which class makes absolutely no sound during lessons?

which class saps the whole zi-high energy from you cos they're just so fucking quiet and dull?

which class hates school celebrations cos they're a waste of time and rather have formal lessons?

which class doesn't even bother to bond with each other?

which class sucks so much, there's really no point in calling those 36 people a class anymore?

oh right, my class.

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y'know what?

next year let's just choose all the unenthu people to be the class comm,

let them know how hopeless it is to try to bond this class.

they can be the ones planning the class outings (mugger dates, perhaps),

they can go do all the seating arrangements shit

(doesn't matter who you sit with, they're probably clinging on to every shit that the teacher is saying and can't be bothered to listen to you talk),

they can do all the mass smsing/the events planning/announcements making.

it wouldn't matter how screwed the class becomes:

it wouldn't get any worse than this.

oh, and you know what?

i have suggestions on who to choose.

(they'll fit the role perfectly)

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no, this is not a hate post.

this is just me voicing out what i really think about 3B as a whole.

i thank God that there are people inside who are like me,

and it's really nice to know that i'm not just some weird over enthu person ;)

Labels: /:, bored, feelings, friends, God, pissed, random, rants, school, supernova, thoughts, tired, wants

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Thursday, August 27, 2009

.__.

finished cheer sheets for stds ones.

i have to get used to late nights again, i guess.

smc1 (L)

Labels: /:, sj, smc1, tired

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Wednesday, August 26, 2009

promised pixels. xoxo

saved this as draft last night and forgot to post it.

i'm tired of seeing all my friends walk ahead of me and never turning back.

life's just one long rat race, ain't it?

it's just running to have the highest popularity, having the bests friends.

studying at the best college, getting the best job.

it's really putting me off that the people i trust are the people i should beware most,

and that best friends are those you don't know well.

ah, it's just one big confusing concept that i don't want to understand.

Labels: /:, emo, epiphany, feelings, friends, supernova, thoughts

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9:59 PM

it starts in my toes and I crinkle my nose

-bubbly, colbie caillat

feeling not bubbly at all now:

woke up at 0530 with a splitting headache and nearly died trying to go back to sleep.

woke up again at 0900 with a dull ache in my head, ate breakfast and studied geog.

1500 still awake, and covered industries, global industrial shift and tourism.

only population, urban studies and migration left.

gah. my nose is still feeling really bad, and i can't remember anything that i studied.

great achievement, christine.

oh, and my house has a new tv and i don't like it.

it's too big (and i thought people liked big tvs) /:

ah well. back to migration.

[edit] add an aching toe to the sickness equation. stubbed my toe on the table. pain ): [/edit]

Labels: /:, bored, homework, notes, school, sick, tired, wants

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Tuesday, August 25, 2009

geography

my awesome geog notes.

which are only half done, and i think i'm gonna flunk the test.

currently printing out notes for the other topics so i can study them my way.

i'm killing trees here /:

head is so full and eyes so dense that i think i can just fall asleep sitting.

goodnight world (full of muggers and failures)

Labels: /:, feelings, homework, notes, school, supernova, tired

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Tuesday, August 18, 2009

The Storyteller: truths, lies & in betweens

it's like trying to get a picture out of your head, but never getting it right.

it's like finding the right words, but using it the wrong way.

it's like confiding to a friend, and hearing him spread the rumours.

it's like being confident for a test, but seeing the failing results.

it's like seeing the world in black and white, but ommiting the grey areas.

it's like searching for your greatest desire, and finding out that it's been with you the whole time.

it's like singing your favourite song, and realising that you got the lyrics all wrong.

it's like solving a math equation, but using the wrong formulae.

it's like dancing with an injured ankle; writing with an inkless pen;

it's like spelling without alphabets; talking in different tongues.

it's like i'm the storyteller, telling the truths, lies and in betweens.

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today's a plain boring day.

and people got me thinking bout love.

Labels: /:, bored, emo, epiphany, notes, poem, random, sick, thoughts, tired

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Monday, August 17, 2009

GTA

222 more words!

i can do it. (i hope)

in terrible need of sleep and the fact that i just drank hot chocolate doesn't really help me to stay up ):

gah. but it's my thinking drink.

cos ribena ran out ._.

i'm have such a sad life now.

Labels: /:, goals, homework, notes, sick, tired, wants

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